New project!

Last week I had a very interesting night. Simply put: Two poet/photographers meeting. Years of written passions and pains. Collections of sensual photography. Combined works to tell a story. A story of a man, a chance meeting, desire, love, betrayal, despair, hope, dissapointment and self revelation.

It was quite interesting and fun as we laid down individual poems that reacted off the previous to tell a story. One by one, like a strange card game of someone's fate. The final result will be a book intermixing words and imagery from two minds walking different yet similar paths of the heart.

Now I just need to work on some new poetry-inspired photography. Fun!

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Long...dramatic...pause...

Happy birthday to me.

Signs of Salvation...

Normally, I use this site to release my innermost emotions within prose as a sense of release. I must take a break from that for a moment.

Amazing. Just when you feel all in the world is about to fall into an unfathomable depth, someone comes into your life to show you the way to the beautiful gates of self salvation. Yes, self salvation. Not a salvation I've always searched within another, but one that I can find within myself...for myself...of myself.

Strange that lately I've been feeling something largely spiritual was coming my way. Something so astounding that it would change me eternally and beyond. Thus the recent poetic prose written in the form of , God, Heaven and angels. I always believed in "signs", but never had too much faith in them. But lately, they've been pushing themselves into view that I couldn't but stop and notice that something...someone has been guiding me. Guided me to touch again an old dark addiction to make me reach out to an old friend for guidance and then, over coffee, meet someone that would open my eyes for the first time and have everything make sense.

Now, I feel all the heavy burdens of self doubt, self loathing and pain has been moved aside by something so bright,that it could bring the night into day. Moved aside as I still have workto do, but I feel more alive than I have in many many years. To finally see the path to the serenity I have searched for. The serenity I deserve. I can taste true love...not for another for a change, but for once, for myself. I taste of it...and now that I see the path to fully consume it and become it.

Ack...I've dragged on this flourishing long enough. I'm just simply excited, full of hope and promise...and smiling. =)

And now, our regular scheduled program...(funny that I wrote this before this new enlightenment)...

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A feel the approach
Of a new dawn
From the cleansing light
Of personal divination

The numbing pain
Of tired flesh
Will give way
To wings of new hope

To soon rise
Above self Purgatory
And soar towards
The embrace of Heaven

(c) 2004 Dvs

I exist only to torment
I breathe only to aggravate
I move only to anger
I speak only to infuriate
I am the enemy
I am the nemesis
I am everything that is wrong
I am hate
I am loathing
I am pain
I am...
I am...
I...am.

I watch in wondrous awe
Beneath the grace of an angel
As she swirls and soars
Within her newfound light
Of love all encompassing
Enveloping her beauty
To bathe her in the warmth
Of true bliss

I watch from below
Within tattered wings
And tearful rememberance
Of my place once beside her
As she fades from view
Forever soaring
Swirling gracefully
Towards Heaven

© 2004 Dvs

Falling from grace
Entangled in wings
Tattered on shards
From a heart shattered

Seeking sanctuary
From abandonment
Within an emptiness
As vast as Heaven

Far from God's gift
Far from salvation
Screaming in silence
Within prayers unanswered

Forever fallen
Away from the light
To seek eternally
A grace within Purgatory

© 2004 Dvs

Missing
Our Love
Unforgiving memories
Remnants of what once was
Never ending

© 2004 Dvs

Restrict the flames
Extinguish the fires
Push it deep within
Restrain its freedom
Encase its essence
Snuff the embers
Subsume the cold

© 2004 Dvs

Denials
Emerging
Searing
Inflictions
Raging
Eternally

© 2004 Dvs

Latest shoots...

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I have seen the face of fascination
Gazed into her eyes of intrigue
Drawn in by her whispers of wonder
And surrendered to the touch of temptation
To be captivated by her sighs of serenity

© 2004 Dvs

Rungs

Fallen
Once again
For the nth time
Feeling a bit dazed
A bit more confused
And much more pained
Than the times before

I lay on the ground
And close my eyes
To reflect on the pain
To reflect on my mistake

How could I not see
That I was about to mistep?
How could I not know
That when I felt the wavering
That I was about to fall?
I became distracted
I became too confident
Within the stability
Of that last rung

I open my eyes
And look up once again

Rungs
So many rungs
That seem endless
Some rungs are easy
Some nearly unattainable
Then there are those
That come graciously to you
Offering a higher view
Of the beauties of life
To only slip and fall
Within regretable mistakes

So I pick myself up
Brush myself off
And reach for the first one
Knowing that within each fall
I climb once more
To an even higher rung
To eventually reach the goal
Of touching heaven

(c) 2004 Dvs

New ventures...revisited

Well, it's been a couple weeks of coming into the light, so to speak, and it's been...interesting. For the first time in too many years, I've had many moments to reflect upon my life. I've experienced new adventures (skydiving!). Involved new people in my life. Changed my social horizons. But overall, I now realize what I've always been missing...needing in my life...

Normalcy.

I now realize that I've spent way too many years rejecting the "normal" life. Living for what I thought fulfilled me. Thriving within the nightlife. Becoming part of the industry. Trying to create something big within the city as a means to somewhat give meaning to my life. And within this, I've lost what truly mattered in life. To find peace in the simplest things. To find comfort in normalcy.

I've now rediscovered long hidden passions within that used to fulfill me years ago. To simply create. To write. To compose music. To think freely and openly about anything and everything. And through this, I've also now realized the blessings that life had given me to merely get lost within the complications of my previous life. Once-in-a-lifetime gifts that I had foolishly let slip away. And I am saddened within this newfound peace.

Overall, I know I will be okay. I am learning from my mistakes and am working to create a better and more complete me. To uncomplicate myself. To take time to count the stars. To truly breathe in life and become what I once was years ago...An ever self-exploring artist that thrives to seek enrichment within the simple things in life.

Desires
Enticing
Pressing
Resurrecting
Encompassing
Slowly
Slipping
Inwards
Onto
Nothingness

(c) Dvs 2004

Seeking models for new artistic direction...

After a 4 year absence in photography, I have rediscovered my passion within the art and am currently updating my portfolio (link below). If any Detroit area models are interested in working together to create some dramatic glamour/art photography, feel free to contact me. An escort is welcome for your concerns and a media CD will be provided shortly afterwards. TFCD only. Thanks and take care...

Anthony

Dark Vision Studio
www.dvsdetroit.com

New ventures?

After way too many years of seclusion within the second shift (afternoons) on my "real" job, I decided it is time for a change and I'm moving to dayshift. A change that is too long in coming perhaps, but it's high time for this night creature to experience the daylight and rejoin the living. I can't wait like a child waiting for Christmas as I can see the possiblities abound to finally have a healthy social and personal life all around. To visit galleries and museums. To see a movie. To go to dinners. To have coffeehouse chats. To work with other creative groups.

The future is looking really good.

=)

A rant...

Why is it so hard to be understood?

When sometime you expresss yourself poetically or artistically, other think you are too much?

All I am is a simple man of simple values.

I feel.

I express.

I release.

But then there are others that think you think too much.

I cannot help who I am.

I cannot help what I am.

A being filled with emotions and desires in hopes to find some salvation.

A being still holding onto a scant facade of feeling true happiness.

Of feeling at peace.

I'm tired of being misunderstood.

I'm tired of being looked at as complex.

I am simple.

I am human.

I feel.

VELVET

For so long
You had a hold on me
But too long within this hold
Has changed my view of what we could be

I used to wonder when love would begin
With the beauty that destiny could bring
But now the blinds are off and I can see

I'm no longer a slave to your velvet heaven
No longer chained to your satin ways
I won't submit to your promised haven
Because for once I am free

As you know
I gave my soul to you
But did you know within this soul
Lies a passion to see love through

I would have given a love so complete
That all your passionate dreams just can't compete
But you were always much too blind to see

Now I'm no longer a slave to your velvet heaven
No longer chained to your satin ways
I won't submit to your promised haven
Because for once
For once and now forever
I am finally free

I am free

Copyright 2004 Dvs

Skinny Puppy concert photos!

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Poetry...

The wonderful thing about the written word as it allows you to expel inner turmoils and those sometimes beautiful darkened emotions that plague us from moving on. After I wrote this, I felt a great weight lifted from within and I know I will become greater from the experience. Enjoy.

Denial

I didn't love you
I wasn't in love with you
I didn't cherish everything that was you
I wasn't inspired by your vibrant soul
I wasn't amazed by your timeless wisdom
I wasn't fascinated by your childlike curiosity
I wasn't uplifted by the winds of your spirit
I wasn't grounded by your loving embrace
I wasn't humbled by your physical beauty
I wasn't in awe of your inner beauty
I didn't fall deeply within your soulful eyes
I wasn't weakened by your tender kiss
I wasn't reborn within your every breath
I wasn't bound in ecstacy within your touch
I wasn't weakened by your ecstatic sighs
I didn't savour the taste of you
I didn't lose myself within the hours of passion
I wasn't proud of your scars on my flesh
I wasn't in peace within your satiated sleep
My heart didn't shatter when you said you loved someone else
My life didn't fade when you left me for him
I don't see your face within every crowd
I don't hear your voice within every breeze
I won't die without your love
I won't die without you
Because I wasn't in love with you
I didn't...
Love you

Copyright 2004 Dvs - All Rights Reserved

And more new work...

Latest photographic work...

The creation...

and thus the beginning.