2004/10/26

Signs of Salvation...

Normally, I use this site to release my innermost emotions within prose as a sense of release. I must take a break from that for a moment.

Amazing. Just when you feel all in the world is about to fall into an unfathomable depth, someone comes into your life to show you the way to the beautiful gates of self salvation. Yes, self salvation. Not a salvation I've always searched within another, but one that I can find within myself...for myself...of myself.

Strange that lately I've been feeling something largely spiritual was coming my way. Something so astounding that it would change me eternally and beyond. Thus the recent poetic prose written in the form of , God, Heaven and angels. I always believed in "signs", but never had too much faith in them. But lately, they've been pushing themselves into view that I couldn't but stop and notice that something...someone has been guiding me. Guided me to touch again an old dark addiction to make me reach out to an old friend for guidance and then, over coffee, meet someone that would open my eyes for the first time and have everything make sense.

Now, I feel all the heavy burdens of self doubt, self loathing and pain has been moved aside by something so bright,that it could bring the night into day. Moved aside as I still have workto do, but I feel more alive than I have in many many years. To finally see the path to the serenity I have searched for. The serenity I deserve. I can taste true love...not for another for a change, but for once, for myself. I taste of it...and now that I see the path to fully consume it and become it.

Ack...I've dragged on this flourishing long enough. I'm just simply excited, full of hope and promise...and smiling. =)

And now, our regular scheduled program...(funny that I wrote this before this new enlightenment)...

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A feel the approach
Of a new dawn
From the cleansing light
Of personal divination

The numbing pain
Of tired flesh
Will give way
To wings of new hope

To soon rise
Above self Purgatory
And soar towards
The embrace of Heaven

(c) 2004 Dvs

2004/10/23

I exist only to torment
I breathe only to aggravate
I move only to anger
I speak only to infuriate
I am the enemy
I am the nemesis
I am everything that is wrong
I am hate
I am loathing
I am pain
I am...
I am...
I...am.

2004/10/16

I watch in wondrous awe
Beneath the grace of an angel
As she swirls and soars
Within her newfound light
Of love all encompassing
Enveloping her beauty
To bathe her in the warmth
Of true bliss

I watch from below
Within tattered wings
And tearful rememberance
Of my place once beside her
As she fades from view
Forever soaring
Swirling gracefully
Towards Heaven

© 2004 Dvs

2004/10/13

Falling from grace
Entangled in wings
Tattered on shards
From a heart shattered

Seeking sanctuary
From abandonment
Within an emptiness
As vast as Heaven

Far from God's gift
Far from salvation
Screaming in silence
Within prayers unanswered

Forever fallen
Away from the light
To seek eternally
A grace within Purgatory

© 2004 Dvs

2004/10/04

Missing
Our Love
Unforgiving memories
Remnants of what once was
Never ending

© 2004 Dvs