I have seen the face of fascination
Gazed into her eyes of intrigue
Drawn in by her whispers of wonder
And surrendered to the touch of temptation
To be captivated by her sighs of serenity

© 2004 Dvs

Rungs

Fallen
Once again
For the nth time
Feeling a bit dazed
A bit more confused
And much more pained
Than the times before

I lay on the ground
And close my eyes
To reflect on the pain
To reflect on my mistake

How could I not see
That I was about to mistep?
How could I not know
That when I felt the wavering
That I was about to fall?
I became distracted
I became too confident
Within the stability
Of that last rung

I open my eyes
And look up once again

Rungs
So many rungs
That seem endless
Some rungs are easy
Some nearly unattainable
Then there are those
That come graciously to you
Offering a higher view
Of the beauties of life
To only slip and fall
Within regretable mistakes

So I pick myself up
Brush myself off
And reach for the first one
Knowing that within each fall
I climb once more
To an even higher rung
To eventually reach the goal
Of touching heaven

(c) 2004 Dvs

New ventures...revisited

Well, it's been a couple weeks of coming into the light, so to speak, and it's been...interesting. For the first time in too many years, I've had many moments to reflect upon my life. I've experienced new adventures (skydiving!). Involved new people in my life. Changed my social horizons. But overall, I now realize what I've always been missing...needing in my life...

Normalcy.

I now realize that I've spent way too many years rejecting the "normal" life. Living for what I thought fulfilled me. Thriving within the nightlife. Becoming part of the industry. Trying to create something big within the city as a means to somewhat give meaning to my life. And within this, I've lost what truly mattered in life. To find peace in the simplest things. To find comfort in normalcy.

I've now rediscovered long hidden passions within that used to fulfill me years ago. To simply create. To write. To compose music. To think freely and openly about anything and everything. And through this, I've also now realized the blessings that life had given me to merely get lost within the complications of my previous life. Once-in-a-lifetime gifts that I had foolishly let slip away. And I am saddened within this newfound peace.

Overall, I know I will be okay. I am learning from my mistakes and am working to create a better and more complete me. To uncomplicate myself. To take time to count the stars. To truly breathe in life and become what I once was years ago...An ever self-exploring artist that thrives to seek enrichment within the simple things in life.

Desires
Enticing
Pressing
Resurrecting
Encompassing
Slowly
Slipping
Inwards
Onto
Nothingness

(c) Dvs 2004